Over the past fourteen months of lockdown, homeless camps have multiplied throughout the city, wherever there is available space. You might say they’ve multiplied like a virus. They line the freeways, border our city parks, and pimple our streets. The other day I saw a tent right in the middle of Hawthorne Avenue.
My husband and I have been photographing these camps, in the hope of raising awareness. They are occupied during the day, with people scratching out their existence. There are babies in these camps. Artwork. Barbecue grills and laundry hanging to dry. People become homeless for all sorts of reasons. Drug addiction, mental illness, job loss, family issues. Whatever the reason, as a society we are failing these fellow human beings.
The contrast between wealth and poverty deepens, in a manner we arrogantly associate with Third World countries. In our Irvington neighborhood contractor’s trucks line the streets as people take advantage of the pandemic slowdown to renovate their homes. Meanwhile, a few blocks away, “home” consists of a tent. Or maybe a blanket in a storefront. People hide away in their homes when there are so many who do not have one. We are taking these pictures and posting them on Instagram to bring these camps, and their residents into the open. Only when see these neighbors as ourselves, and not as “the other”, will we begin to get a grip on this complex problem and begin to change things.
When I was fifteen visiting Portland a guy told me that Portland was “the spiritual center of the universe”. It took awhile to get back here. When we moved to Portland in 1992 it felt like an overgrown college town to our New Yorker eyes. Counterculture coexisted with rednecks. Downtown was sparkling clean. The future “Pearl District” was home to warehouses, artists, and heroin addicts. If you wanted a good meal you went a hotel or the Ringside Steak House. By the 2000’s Portland had become Portlandia, trendy restaurants opened every week, and luxury condos sprouted in the Pearl. Now Portlandia has fallen on hard times. It is still the spiritual center of the universe in my heart. Portland will rise again, when this lockdown ends and we get some innovative, responsible leadership. It won’t be Portlandia. It will be something different, hopefully someplace more diverse, more inclusive, more humane. In the meantime let me quote the lyrics that keep running through my head from Portland songwriter Casey O’Neill, which say it so much better than I can:
Steel bridge at sundown walking along over the poisoned water
Skyline of the city covered in grey fog
We’ve seen the seasons come and go
The clouds roll in, storm by storm
The people flood in on a great migration
Give me destruction
Sharpen the edge
Let me walk on shattered glass
Down Belmont and 10th
Out to our western hills and east out to the mountain
Blooming in the valley
My little dark rose
My little dark rose
Shine darkness shine
Shine darkness shine
Standing on the steel bridge in the drizzle and the grey
I hear music on each side of me and I sing its refrain
It’s the sound of Greg Sage, turn up “the Chill Remains”
Dead Moon lighting a fire in the western world
No matter where I run to or how far I stray
I will always return to you, nestled in your thorns
And somewhere in the numbers in an old man bar
Are the ones who won’t forsake you
My little dark rose
My little dark rose
Mother’s Day
May 10, 2021Yesterday was a wonderful Mother’s Day. After waking up with coffee and yoga, and opening a gift from my husband (a 3 record Bob Dylan Rolling Thunder Revue set) we went over to our oldest daughters house for a Mother’s Day brunch. There were 13 of us: two daughters; two son in laws; five granddaughters; and one of my son in law’s parents. We hung out for the whole day, eating, drinking, watching the kids play, taking a long walk around the neighborhood. I also spent a long time time chatting with my two sons, one in Chicago, one in Rhode Island. I’ll be seeing them soon also. Thursday my husband and I are getting on a plane for the first time in one and a half years and flying to Chicago. This summer we will fly to the East Coast. It’s a special kind of happiness to spend your day like that, a deep contentment that feeds your soul for a long time afterwards.
The day was especially sweet in contrast to the situation a year ago. We did spend the day together, but under a lot more constriction and tension. An in person celebration was at my request, the only gift I wanted. None of the farce of Zoom. But getting together required negotiation. Was everybody comfortable with this violation of “shelter at home”, the most bizarre definition of illicit behavior I could possibly conceive of? They were, but in varying degrees. We needed to stay outside and fortunately the weather cooperated, warm, sunny, and beautiful. We ate foods that didn’t need to be shared–mini quiches, rolls, and the like, which struck me as ridiculous (and was later proven to be so), but whatever. We didn’t touch–except for one stolen hug at the end.
The lockdown –which was supposed to “flatten the curve”–was a failure. There was no discrimination between legitimately high risk situations (congregate living settings, large indoor gatherings requiring travel, crowded bars, etc)and small personal get togethers. Virtually nothing was done in that three months and the endless “stage one opening” that followed–to alter societal institutions or medical practice to get a handle on the pandemic. In the winter we were hit by a way worse surge and an even more draconian incursion into our personal social interactions. Meanwhile incredible economic and psychological damage was done which will take years to work our way out of.
Now, thanks to the vaccines, some build up of natural immunity, and hopefully more science outweighing panic (adequate ventilation, anyone?), we are on our slow way out of this disaster.
But I didn’t think of any of this yesterday. I was just in the moment. Be happy.
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